Doug Coupland, who wrote Generation X and popularised the term
Gen X, also wrote the book called Life
After God. . . . Let me quote from
the dustcover of Life After God:
As suburban children we floated at
night in swimming pools the temperature of blood, pools the color of earth as
seen from outer space. You are the first
generation raised without religion. What
happens if we are raised without religion or belief? As we grow older the beauty and enchantment
of the world tempers our souls. We are
living creatures with strong religious impulses, yet where do these impulses
flow in a world of malls, TV, Kraft dinners and jets. How do we cope with loneliness? How do we deal with anxiety, the clash of
relationships? How do we reach the
quiet, safe layer of our lives?
Coupland tells many such stories
in the Book, but on the next to last page he writes this conclusion:
Now–here is my secret: I tell it to you with openness of heart that
I doubt I shall ever achieve again, so I pray that you are in a quiet room as
you hear these words. My secret is that
I need God– that I am sick and can no longer make it alone. I need God to help me give, because I no longer
seem to be capable of giving; to help me be kind, as I no longer seem capable of
kindness; to help me love, as I seem beyond being able to love.
–Patrick Morley, A Man’s Guide to Spiritual Disciplines
To all who read these words, I have a secret also. Thirty-five years ago I sat in a quiet room
and struggled to say yes to a man’s invitation to ask Jesus into my life. Not because I didn’t want to, I just
struggled to find the confidence to be sure that I could make this relationship
work, though I did not articulate it in my heart the same way at the time.
I harboured a deep, deep secret like Doug Coupland. My secret was that I needed God, that I was
sick and could no longer make it on my own.
I needed Him to help me give, because I no longer seemed able to
give. I needed God to help me be kind as
I no longer seemed capable of kindness, to help me love as I seemed beyond being
able to love unconditionally. In that
moment back in 1978 in a quiet room I said yes.